Journal Entry 7 / November 13, 2019

We’re getting a little glimpse of winter in New York City this week and I’m probably the only one not mad about it. Although my 3 mile run in Central Park yesterday was a little more uncomfortable than I was hoping it would be, and I definitely learned that I need to invest in some warmer running attire, I’m kind of giddy about the next few months. The Christmas season in New York is my favorite thing about this city and a big reason why I never want to leave.

Last week I hosted my friend Karinna at my apartment for just over 24 hours and had the best time squeezing in as much as we could in a day. It’s amazing what you can see and do in New York in one day if you just hit the ground immediately.

We walked through Central Park, had coffee with Ralph Lauren (not actually), wandered through Tiffany’s to try on $65,000 engagement rings, ate lunch at Chelsea Market, went to the Top of the Rock (my hands down favorite tourist attraction in New York), and I finally had dinner at Eataly’s rooftop restaurant, Serra Bierra.

Other than that though, things have been relatively uninteresting in my life. I feel like I lost a little momentum the last few weeks because I just haven’t been that motivated. Maybe it’s the weather getting colder or maybe there’s something else in the air, or maybe it’s just me, but it’s been hard to concentrate lately. There is so much that I want to do to better myself on a daily basis that I get overwhelmed a lot and find my path a little cluttered.

I think I really need to start a gratitude journal or something. I am constantly finding myself wanting change, wanting to move in one direction or the other. There are so many things I love about my life and things that I know I should be proud of, but I tend to focus on the things that just aren’t where I want them to be, like my health and physical fitness or my career and finances – just to name two that really bring me down a lot.

I don’t know if anyone else has this problem, but I find that there are just not enough hours in the day to do everything I want to do, like: meal prep, workout, build a blogging business while I’m working my bartending job, clean my apartment, read books and journals, and still find time to hang out with my boyfriend and my friends. This is coming off more whiny than I want it to, I just can’t help but feel like it’s all too much sometimes.

Does anybody else out there keep a gratitude journal? If so, have you found that it’s helpful in staying optimistic? I’ve never been disciplined enough to actually keep a daily journal, but it’s something I think I want to give another go.

I’m going to keep this short today because I have a lot of work to do. If you don’t hear from me for a few weeks it’s because I am diving a little deeper into what I want this blog to do and where I want it to go. I came very close to just giving up yesterday due to lack of progression. After a little talk with Ryan I took to the few blogging support groups I’ve joined on Facebook and asked the hard question. What am I doing wrong?

I’m now left with a long to do list and most of the items on it require me to step back, look at the big picture and start making some serious plans. It’s time for me to tap into a part of my brain I rarely use to strategize and plan like a business woman. Wish me luck.

Love, Krystal